To be grown up

To be grown up
We all will be grown up,but for somebody it's terrible.As a 32 years old man like me,grown up means I am old,especially you have a tough job and bad salary.Hmm... it's shame!
This afternoon my wife and I went to shopping.We went to a mall and my wife fancied a nice dress,it's bright pink colored.My wife wear it like a 20 years old girl.It's a nice dress and the price is nice too.But my wife didn't buy it,because it's too expensive.She is polite and sensitive  but it make me feel blue.On the way home,neither of us spoken anything.I cannot fail to think,what's the essence of the life?money or love or something?So I thought it must be terrible to be grown up.
Now,I'm writing these letters and looking at the hole on my socks.Gosh,they are the socks of an adult man,can't you believe,right?There are too many hat to wear,too many ball to juggle.It make me feel like that I'm a jest playing on the life stage.I appear in the funny red nose and bright green stocking,it's awful,right?I think I have to do something to change it.